something needs to c hange

[voxwoman]

My normal hangouts online have changed. Partly because my friends have shifted the sites where they hang out, and I've been wasting spending a lot of time on some "new" forums. Plus work has been quite hellish.

I know I've posted since last month, but only to the quilting group, I guess. I've also been busy with work and the parent group, and I've been on facebook a whole lot.

But it's not as satisfying an interaction as what was going on here and I feel like I'm missing something from my life. I've also been terribly lazy at home and not doing a whole lot (or at least it seems that way) - my projects are all behind as I'd rather sit in front of the TV than do things.

All the volunteer activities that I do have come to a frenzy of activity - there 's political bullshit going on in the school group and I'm quite ready to drop it all and walk away. It's reminding me of the coven bullshit from 3 or 4 years ago.

I apparently have cataracts which is making all things online rather difficult for me in the first place, as stuff is just blurry and hard to read, and I wind up enlarging the screens a whole lot. It's also affecting my job, especially now that I have to be creating GUI icons that are 16 pixels square. So on top of supporting 3 people, and getting a teenager a car and the 3x increase in my auto insuriance, I have to save up enough money to cover the 5K deductible and 20% co payments (I think that's what it is on our shitty health insurance) so I can afford to get the surgery to restore my eyesight. The new contacts help with the distance vision (I can read road signs again), but it doesn't help for shit on 10-pt type on a computer screen that's at arm's length.

I think I need to do something else. Break up the routine. I'd like some extended time off, but that's out of the question for a self-employed freelancer whose spouse hasn't earned fast food job money in 2 years. Maybe if it would just stop raining on every single day I have off, it might improve my mood.

I have commitments for every second from now until mid-June. OK, I"m done complaining for now. thanks for llistening.

Comments

[saminz.livejournal.com]

That is indeed a lot, and well worth complaining about...

Eyes should get priority, I'd say. And maybe allow yourself to drop at least the most annoying of your volunteer activities?
Of course, as always, I cannot imagine shouldering even half your obligations. So cut yourself some slack, lady!

Maybe do something "different" and fun with your family for just one evening? Go riksha riding, or something ;-)?
Or just find a friendly bar and get pleasantly pissed with the husband, talking about old times or just anything apart from current obligations? Or take a long walk through that gorgeous neighbourhood of yours, once it stops raining for long enough...

*hugs*

[zorya-thinks.livejournal.com]

I think I need to do something else. Break up the routine.

I think you've nailed it. I remember when Kris was born (wow, that was 25 years ago) I was getting overloaded so I had to evaluate what I was doing with my time and decide what I could afford to drop to take some of the pressure off. Sounds like the parent group is a good candidate.

[redrose3125.livejournal.com]

[[hugs]]

You do have a lot to complain about.

[7tree-hugger.livejournal.com]

{{{voxwoman}}}

Will listen anytime.